*feels like an idiot*

Okay, so in my utter exhaustion last night, I failed to notice that the part the dogs chewed on, is the part I have two off. *facepalm* Cuz my charger comes in two parts - box with cord to computer, and cord to outlet. They chewed up the outlet plug. So... ignore my last post? Pretty please?


Well, cept for the date thing. *giggles* *That's* still on.

It amazes me what people will do to make me feel insignificant...

I'm over at Rae's right now, visiting her, her son (my nephew) and her family.

The first thing her mom said to me was, "What did you do to your *hair*?" (It's shaved in the back, kinda punkish now, very few people like it, but I love it) She had a hold of Kaleb and I tried to take him to say hello and give him a hug, and she just kind of looked at me like, who do you think you are?

She treats me this way all the time. She doesn't consider me family, even though she's always been family to me, and she consistently tries to diminish my role in Kaleb's life, like I don't matter in the least to him. She refuses to call me Auntie Dee or Dee Dee - when speaking to him of me - which are the only names he knows me by, and every time I try to feed him or change his diaper, she will quite literally take over, stating I'm doing it wrong. Forgetting that I lived with Rae and Kaleb for months and took care of him every single day.

I understand that she's Nana, and that not even his mom does things right according to her, but it's more than just how she treats me in reference to Kaleb. I was here for nearly a half hour, in the kitchen with her and Rae, trying to talk to her and she ignored me at every turn. Then when she finally deigned to speak to me, she made the snotty comment about my hair. She acts as if having me here is an inconvenience, even after she's said I could come over. She just doesn't like me anymore, and I honestly have no idea what I've done to earn her enmity.

Rae's dad has never really liked me, I'm far too alternative for his tastes - pagan, bi, prone to cutting my hair in odd styles, stretching my ears, along with an assortment of other things he just doesn't like - but he still says things that hurt me. He told Rae that he doesn't care that Fox and I are dating (he knows because he works at Jubitz, too), that we're probably perfect together, because we're both looney.

*sighs* So, I guess what I'm getting at through this entire post, is - why do I let all this bother me? Why do I care? I'm Kaleb's aunt, and nothing will change that, and my nickname of Auntie Dee Dee was Rae's idea, she started calling me that before he was even born. It doesn't matter what they think about who I'm dating, because it's not as if I'd invite them to the wedding, if ever that were to happen. Rae and Kaleb are truly my family, but *their* family is something I've always tried to make mine, too.

Guess I should stop trying, huh?